Amin has become very sweet these days.
He is saying Bede all the time which means give it to me.
He is imitating our chores like praying(Namaz) or wiping the tables.
He loves music and dancing and he dances with every kind of music.
Whenever he saw an animal or a picture of an animal he says MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU so funny.
۱۳۸۷ دی ۲۳, دوشنبه
۱۳۸۷ دی ۲۰, جمعه
two become one
One of them is trying to do her simple jobs during the day, cooking, washing, reading, smiling, walking, talking and she is nice and happy. she is hopeful. she thinks she has everything.
the other one is watching me all the time.
she is worried, depressed, she thinks about the past and the future, she is sad. she wants more, she wants to do more, she is not fulfilled, she is disappointed.
At some points, these two people become one. That is when I am really conflicted.
the other one is watching me all the time.
she is worried, depressed, she thinks about the past and the future, she is sad. she wants more, she wants to do more, she is not fulfilled, she is disappointed.
At some points, these two people become one. That is when I am really conflicted.
You are my Angle
You are my angle
Whenever you sit beside me and hold my hand
Whenever you close your eyes and go to sleep.
And when you look far away saying nothing
I feel you are flying
Then I take your hand
I kiss your eyes
I look where you look, far away
I am flying too
With your wings
Whenever you sit beside me and hold my hand
Whenever you close your eyes and go to sleep.
And when you look far away saying nothing
I feel you are flying
Then I take your hand
I kiss your eyes
I look where you look, far away
I am flying too
With your wings
۱۳۸۷ دی ۱۴, شنبه
I am tired
I am tired of waiting for something.
It is a long time that I am waiting for something to happen.
There was a lot that should happen for us to be able to go back to Iran.
The school, military service, renting the house, money issues...
And now it is almost done, but still there is one more thing to be finished. Citizenship...
and I dont know why I am so weak these days. I am not the strong person that I was before. I feel I dont have any more energy. I cant eat well, every night I have bad dreams and I dont feel happy.
Last night I dreamed of Maryam in my grandmas home , They have a big yard, it was like all the cartoons we watched when we were kids, the mother and the child running to each other and hugging each other at the end. I was running all the yard Maryam was running all the yard and calling me maman maman.
It is a long time that I am waiting for something to happen.
There was a lot that should happen for us to be able to go back to Iran.
The school, military service, renting the house, money issues...
And now it is almost done, but still there is one more thing to be finished. Citizenship...
and I dont know why I am so weak these days. I am not the strong person that I was before. I feel I dont have any more energy. I cant eat well, every night I have bad dreams and I dont feel happy.
Last night I dreamed of Maryam in my grandmas home , They have a big yard, it was like all the cartoons we watched when we were kids, the mother and the child running to each other and hugging each other at the end. I was running all the yard Maryam was running all the yard and calling me maman maman.
۱۳۸۷ آذر ۲۰, چهارشنبه
I am back
Hi
I am back to my weblog. I was too busy to write anything here.
I went to Iran on October 1st and I came back to Canada on November 19th. I wnet to stay in Iran but I came back for the citizenship. To become the citizen of the country that I am leaving ...
Maryam is in Iran and she enjoyed staying there a lot. Amin is with me. We miss her a lot these days.
I go shopping some days and try to find something nice for her.
I also watch tv a lot and read a lot.
We went to the movie Australia, it was OK.
I like iran much more than here and I am counting the days to go back again.
I am back to my weblog. I was too busy to write anything here.
I went to Iran on October 1st and I came back to Canada on November 19th. I wnet to stay in Iran but I came back for the citizenship. To become the citizen of the country that I am leaving ...
Maryam is in Iran and she enjoyed staying there a lot. Amin is with me. We miss her a lot these days.
I go shopping some days and try to find something nice for her.
I also watch tv a lot and read a lot.
We went to the movie Australia, it was OK.
I like iran much more than here and I am counting the days to go back again.
۱۳۸۷ شهریور ۲۴, یکشنبه
IRAN
I am going back to Iran, in two weeks.
To be honest I cant believe it myself. It is similar to when I was coming to Canada. I had strange feelings. Now again I have different feelings, mostly happy, hopefull,...
I dont have a lot of things to loose in Canada. If I had, maybe I was depressed.
But when I think I realise as I did not work for the last two years and I was concerned mostly about my family, so what do I loose? nothing really.
I had five interviews during last year and I could not get one damn job out of these five. I have started to seriously believe that my hijab is keeping me unsuccessfull for hunting a job. I dont like this fact but it is a reality. Although it is supposedly a free society and everything should be the same for different people and and different cultures, but you will see that this is not exactly true.
I have a short time to prepare for my BIG move.
To be honest I cant believe it myself. It is similar to when I was coming to Canada. I had strange feelings. Now again I have different feelings, mostly happy, hopefull,...
I dont have a lot of things to loose in Canada. If I had, maybe I was depressed.
But when I think I realise as I did not work for the last two years and I was concerned mostly about my family, so what do I loose? nothing really.
I had five interviews during last year and I could not get one damn job out of these five. I have started to seriously believe that my hijab is keeping me unsuccessfull for hunting a job. I dont like this fact but it is a reality. Although it is supposedly a free society and everything should be the same for different people and and different cultures, but you will see that this is not exactly true.
I have a short time to prepare for my BIG move.
۱۳۸۷ مرداد ۲۳, چهارشنبه
Words
Oh, It is a long time I have not written anything. I guess because my mother in law came to Canada for 50 days and I was busy and didnt feel up to write something.
We went to a few trips that was very fun. Niagara falls, Toronto and Ottawa.
Summer is really beautiful in Canada.
Amin is walking properly now and he also speaks a few words like maman baba bah bah ,Amin (his own name).
He immitates Maryam a lot and he is much more happy when Maryam is around him to paly,
although Maryam loves to go to daycare, her Teddy Bear Classroom.
We went to a few trips that was very fun. Niagara falls, Toronto and Ottawa.
Summer is really beautiful in Canada.
Amin is walking properly now and he also speaks a few words like maman baba bah bah ,Amin (his own name).
He immitates Maryam a lot and he is much more happy when Maryam is around him to paly,
although Maryam loves to go to daycare, her Teddy Bear Classroom.
۱۳۸۷ خرداد ۱۷, جمعه
۱۳۸۷ خرداد ۱۴, سهشنبه
۱۳۸۷ خرداد ۶, دوشنبه
۱۳۸۷ اردیبهشت ۳۱, سهشنبه
Not a very good week
It is 20th of May.
There was a lot of bad news last week, a tornado in Burme, an earthquake in China
in Burme 78000 people died and in China 50000 till now.
Amin had a horrible cold last week too.
Ear infection, Eye infection, nonstop Fever.
Thank God I am alive and I dont work and I could keep on nursing him.
Maryam is going to Daycare and she is talking a lot with me and her father. She is very reasonable and she remembers every single sentence that I tell her at this age. So I have to be carefull. I say something to her and tomorrow she is telling me the same thing.
If I talk about fishing she wants to go fishing, If I talk about Iran she wants to go to Iran although she does not know exactly where is Iran.
And another funny thing, She likes the stuff that is advertised on the tv too.
like chocolates, potato chips and other junk foods.
There was a lot of bad news last week, a tornado in Burme, an earthquake in China
in Burme 78000 people died and in China 50000 till now.
Amin had a horrible cold last week too.
Ear infection, Eye infection, nonstop Fever.
Thank God I am alive and I dont work and I could keep on nursing him.
Maryam is going to Daycare and she is talking a lot with me and her father. She is very reasonable and she remembers every single sentence that I tell her at this age. So I have to be carefull. I say something to her and tomorrow she is telling me the same thing.
If I talk about fishing she wants to go fishing, If I talk about Iran she wants to go to Iran although she does not know exactly where is Iran.
And another funny thing, She likes the stuff that is advertised on the tv too.
like chocolates, potato chips and other junk foods.
۱۳۸۷ اردیبهشت ۲۷, جمعه
Maryam and Flowers
I am reading a book about Parenting and it really helped me. It is very amazing how much sometimes a book can help.
It is very beautiful now in Montreal after those months of snow.
This is a photo I got from Maryam in a street that is very close to our house.
Look how cute she is with these flowers that she loves. When 'I look at this photo I think God you are so generous to us and we still want more..!۱۳۸۷ فروردین ۲۶, دوشنبه
walk
I went for a long walk today. I went to the library to get some new books for Maryam. I also searched Jean Coutou, Pharmaprix and Maxi to see if there is anything on sale that we need and so I came back home with Amin's stroller full of stuff.
I bought Lysol disinfecting tissues from Maxi. It is called Lysol 4 in 1. It is really 4 in 1. It is the best name for it. I recommend it strongly.
I bought Lysol disinfecting tissues from Maxi. It is called Lysol 4 in 1. It is really 4 in 1. It is the best name for it. I recommend it strongly.
۱۳۸۷ فروردین ۱۴, چهارشنبه
sun and son
Happy New Year
Happy 13 be dar
I did not write sooner because it was so cold here that it blew away all of my feelings for spring. Now, It is better. It is not snowing anymore, It is more rain and wind and sun, sun.
Amin is getting bigger and bigger, my big little son, son. :)
Amin started to go to daycare from this week. He was not very comfortable the first day, he is attached to me, but I am sure he will get used to it. This year we had a very good and new surprise from our families, something from my Parents and Keyvans parents for all of us.Guess what?
So I am happy and I think this year would be a very nice year hopefully.
Happy 13 be dar
I did not write sooner because it was so cold here that it blew away all of my feelings for spring. Now, It is better. It is not snowing anymore, It is more rain and wind and sun, sun.
Amin is getting bigger and bigger, my big little son, son. :)
Amin started to go to daycare from this week. He was not very comfortable the first day, he is attached to me, but I am sure he will get used to it. This year we had a very good and new surprise from our families, something from my Parents and Keyvans parents for all of us.Guess what?
So I am happy and I think this year would be a very nice year hopefully.
۱۳۸۶ اسفند ۲۰, دوشنبه
March
Today is March 10th.
10 days left from Winter.God knows when winter will leave Montreal. Sometimes it feels like it has always been winter.so long....
Maryam has started to show an interest to do household works. She loves to help me around the house. She is very interested in vacuum cleaning, cooking and making dinner table ready.
Amin is crawling fast and non stop, he has explored by himself all of the house including washrooms :)
10 days left from Winter.God knows when winter will leave Montreal. Sometimes it feels like it has always been winter.so long....
Maryam has started to show an interest to do household works. She loves to help me around the house. She is very interested in vacuum cleaning, cooking and making dinner table ready.
Amin is crawling fast and non stop, he has explored by himself all of the house including washrooms :)
۱۳۸۶ اسفند ۷, سهشنبه
code
I finally finished my VXML code. It is for a Bulls and Cows Game. It is another version of Master Mind(fekre bekr).
So I made a voice application. I will show it to Excendia Inc.
Let see what will happen.
So I made a voice application. I will show it to Excendia Inc.
Let see what will happen.
۱۳۸۶ بهمن ۲۹, دوشنبه
farsi font
I killed myself to type in farsi,I cant.
I downloaded the farsi fonts and farsi keyboard. There is smt missing here.
I downloaded the farsi fonts and farsi keyboard. There is smt missing here.
۱۳۸۶ بهمن ۱۸, پنجشنبه
Eli stone
There is a Tv show that I like, Eli stone, and I have forgot which day it is shown.
Ther is also a song that I like Big girls dont cry and recently I knew the singer is the one who was singing my hump my hump.... Fergie
I guess she is progressing, at least in her own way. :)
Ther is also a song that I like Big girls dont cry and recently I knew the singer is the one who was singing my hump my hump.... Fergie
I guess she is progressing, at least in her own way. :)
۱۳۸۶ بهمن ۱۲, جمعه
Black, White
In the morning, I was fast sleeping. I heard a lot of noise. I got up and saw many birds on the tree behind my room. The tree has no leaves on it, it is winter time. just the tree and the black crows ,many of them maybe 50, or 60, all shouting in the silence of the dawn.
I got scared. So scared and so black. I loved that tree, I think thats my tree, and I did not want those crew on it.
In the afternoon I looked at the same tree, no crow anymore, there is just white snow now ,a tender and beautiful snow. I feel better now.
I got scared. So scared and so black. I loved that tree, I think thats my tree, and I did not want those crew on it.
In the afternoon I looked at the same tree, no crow anymore, there is just white snow now ,a tender and beautiful snow. I feel better now.
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