fall

It is Holoween day today. We bought a custom for Maryam she is not back yet ,but I guess she will bring some candy home.
I went for a walk today and it was a very beautiful day.
beautiful fall.....

I am not working today and thats good.
I worked on sunday .My job is sometimes very stressfull.I am now working at an opinion search company. everyday we work for 8 hours and we call people in US and Canada to have their ideas about different things.The projects are very different from politics to ..Tim Horton.
I still dont have a high productivity rate.I guess some part of it is because I have accent.So it should be good for my English.:)

I was very sad the last day at work that why I ended up here and I was afraid to see I am getting far from engineering.but considering the fact that I have a baby this job fits me,because I can work only 2 days and I am able also to work during weekends.
It would be good if I find a better job 7 months later when Amin is 1 year old.
I am searchin through the internet for jobs.I also meet annalise iten the counsellor at YES center(Youth Employment Service) to guide me through my job search.

talk

I talked with my mother on the phone,I asked her to talk with my Uncles wife to see what is the best choice for me.
She said that we have to keep Amin far from from any cold (both cold weather and flu) and that means no daycare , no shopping malls ...
I am so hungry now.I have to eat and then namaz.

Amin is sick
and my heart is broken.
He got sick on october 3rd,Then we took care of him and he was fine by october 10,
It is october 24th now and he is sick again.
He is too small to handle all these.
Doctor Kovacs says it is because of the daycare, he should not go to daycare until he is at least 1 year old.
We dont have any family here, so I have no choice except that I have to stay home more.
I will work only for 2 days while at that time k1 would be home with the kids.
It is hard but hey we can do it.

Now it is around 2 pm.I am making supper, Maryam is sleeping and Amin is in my arms.
I dont know why his condition is making me feel too much upset although it is cold it is not a seroius illness.
I have to pray god to make all children healthy and happy and to help mothers of the sick children to be stron.

history of religions

I found this very interesting link
It is about the history of religions
see
http://www.mapsofwar.com/ind/history-of-religion.html

first post

Hi
I started to write in my weblog for the first time tonight.I suppose it would be more like a diary.
recently I have realized that I dont remember many things that I would like to remember.like when did Maryam start to laugh loudly or when did she say the first word. like how did I feel when I put her in daycare. Now I have my son Amin too. Many times It happens to me that I think about my first child Maryam to know how can I make a decision based on my experience but I dont remember, and also I dont want to miss any more of their sweet memories.So I guess that is the main reason I made this blog.

Ok,now it is about 10 pm ,both Maryam and Amin are sleeping and K1 is out because he had to fix our car.I dont know when will he come back,he always calls me if he is too late or someting is coming up.Thats is very special for me because I get very stressed when I am waiting for somebody,why?I dont know.

Maryam is now 34 months and Amin is 4 months.
I love them so much .My love is growing everyday and specially from Amins birthday I feel so much like a mom.like two momy .I dont know if taht is making any sense. I mean like my motherly feelings are doubled and that is going to explode me sometime.
like I have been studied so long at school. I was so in the school that I cant explain it. Actually the fact that we are now in Canada far from Iran is because we wanted to study more and more. but many days I think maybe I like to stay with these kids until they are like 12 years of age and dont need me like before.